This morning I was up at 4 a.m. to start the car and drive it around before my wife needs it for work later...the weather has been freezing and when you have such an old vehicle precautions must be taken so you dont have problems when you need to get somewhere.Ah....the lifestyles of the rich and famous!
While I was out driving I decided to take a coffee to my freind Paula at my old job.I used to bring coffee for coworkers often(even though I dont drink it,I drank so much of it in my teens at my my friend Joes house,whose mother made fresh cookies every day.........They were a really nice family.)
When I pulled up to get the coffee the girl said "Oh its free for seniors today!"
What happened ?....Did I graduate to the senior class without knowing?
Not really.I have said before that I dont mind aging.........but it was strange to have this young person automatically assume my age.Yes!she was spot on ..almost...I will be 55 in a matter of months.The funny part was I was all bundled up no gray hair showing,scarf.hat............and so this meant she looked at my face and thought Senior!!....Hilarious!(I think aging bothering you means regret...not good)
I am sooo guilty of thinking Im still really young..........I used to get upset because the kids I was the boss of at my old job would be distant sometimes and I didnt understand till my wife said"I dont think its so strange.. I mean you could be their DAD!"She was so right.
I do have to remember this though when Im looking for work.Im not out to start a new career just need some cash so I can write,hang and enjoy my wife,house,........oh man if I could retire!!
But the biggest thing bubbling up as it does sometimes........I need to sing and play music again.
It has always been hard for me to perform ,I always felt there were expectations(and there are to a degree)
But I mostly felt that I was sharing something personal that I was given .So when people said anything bad(which was almost never),it kept me awake.Dont forget I was a mere 22 when I began and looking back I was a small hit in a small city and that was a blast for 10 years.
So ,I dont know whats next and that feels a whole lot better than the hell of my shoe stock job.So just keep your eye out for Stephen Watts the Singing Senior(according to Mcdonalds)
Every day is different,......stepping out is scary ,fun,.....Im so glad I did.
