Another cold snowy blustery weekend.......my wife and I are planning a day of rest and no interruptions from anyone......this doesnt always work out as we are very attracted to having company and then at the same time we are private about our time off.
I am so fortunate to have a person in life that I am so connected to that sometimes we dont have to speak.
I am confused by people always on the look out for the next relationship.......especially if they have a history of busted relationships.
All I know is me and Wendi came to be without us looking like crazy.I am so lucky,I see people in long term marriage that should do the work or get out.....its not worth it and worse if you are putting your kids through all the ups and downs of your personal life.
Dr. Phil says fighting in front of your kids changes their lives.Im not a huge fan of his but this one is right on,I had personal experience with this growing up,my parents really disliked each other for a very long time before they divorced.....which added so many hurts,confusion and general unhappy feelings.
Dont get me wrong....I wanted them to do something or divorce.I was never sad about it,it made so much sense for them to be apart....and it took forever!
I love being in my fifties as things have turned around in so many ways emotionally.You come to a point when you realize your parents are people......not just mom and dad....thats hard to separate when you are young and trying to impress them.
I regret so much that my dad passed when I was 35........we were close and I could use his support at this financially scary time,but more often I wish he were coming to dinner say......this afternoon!Its all the things like his grandkids,b-days etc.that he would have gotten so much out of........heartbreaking.
I still have mom.......she is minutes away and Im trying to get her to move closer as she is ill at times and it would be so much handier to have her nearer.
My mom is the biggest fighter for life I have ever seen.......seriously.....she should have died from all this sickness a while ago and yet she pushes on.Down one day and then absolutely buzzing around not being able to sit still.Its hard to get her to rest......but she will do as she wishes....sometimes I lecture her,as she calls it.Im really not lecturing as much as telling the truth......but she will do as she wants,always has, and I love that part of her as I have done the same.Obviously Im a non-conformist ,and thats how Im happiest so here I sit ,a fifty three year old hippy,musician,......dare I say writer,and happy as hell to put what I can down to spur others to love their life regardless of how awful the story...........its your story no matter what.....you cant change it.......so embrace and learn and give what you know to others.......its a miracle when your life touches somebody in that place they dont speak about,and then end up speaking about because of the courage you gave them by simply saying your truth.
Lets all say thankyou that there is today and go from there.