Sorry

I was so excited to get this blog up and running and then it crashes 2 posts after I get it back ,Im not super adept at any of the computer stuff,but this has been a bad few months with tech problems.
Ive been thinking about forgiveness very much lately .
Many of us hold on to deep wounds received through growing up in unsettling households .
It makes it difficult for people to know what to hold on to and what to let go.
I think we would be best off if we could forgive it and go on.In my case I was criticized very often on my appearance and my off the cuff attitude that I was going to play and sing for a living did not go over well with one of my parents......the other couldnt say enough about my talents and ability.
When we say forgive I think people attach way to much to what it means.In this case I have been thinking about what May a Angelou said about it.It doesnt mean sorting it all out and and making nice,Its just plain let it go and move on.
I think I have written about seeing your parents as "people"(which doesnt happen at all unless you really look").
We fall for what our parents say about us no matter what because it starts when we are so new to the world and if care is not taken to speak properly in front of chidren and hatefulness between parents is displayed daily ......sorry but huge damage is done.I see parents doing it it all the time.Remember that children take everything to heart because in a perfect world they are new fresh shining unspoiled beings.And if you have an artistic kid like I was the hurt goes deeper as I can remember my parents fighting and knowing what they needed to do but they just made it an ego match most times.Everyone wants to hurt more than the next guy in our crowd ,like a competition sometimes.
So much of this is people not feeling they are seen and unimportant.
As you go through your day realize how much joy you can have by taking a moment to say something nice to the waitress,the cashier,etc.It makes their day but will increase your joy and love twofold.
Love today, right this minute, its all you have literally.