We have had gorgeous sunny fall weather so much this year using the deck far longer than normal.But today it is a chilly 62 and gray as my hair!Love this kind of day to cook something one pot and do mostly a lot of sitting quietly(I sit for an hour or more when my day is finally over being content in meditation that consists of looking at everything across the road in the woods staying as much in the moment as possible.)
Im a person who loves my home so much .
Im always trying to get here,arising at 4a.m. I sometimes dont get here till way late after doing errands and the like ...but I have quiet content time "every day".It is so important we take time for ourselves to quiet the racing thoughts and silliness of adult life.
I urge all of you to find a way to do this.........even 1/2 hour is good but keep trying to make it longer so it becomes habit to incorporate it.
AND..........its free.
Tuesday, September 30, 2014
Sunday, September 14, 2014
The Little Things
Gone forever once more and a very full summer of work ,parties,even a 10 day vacation that was gloriuos but we all have to return and my job is so physically challenging ,I dreamt of retirement alot while I was away.
I have been thinking alot about how we dont celebrate our lifes journeys in the sacred way they should be.I believe memories of pinnacle moments in our lives is a great tool to keep us going.
We tend to say "oh good for me !" and then promptly let them go as we search for the next boost.
You cant find them .....they find you to bolster you on your way to have the confidence to not fear whats next.
I realized the other day that I tend to think of my life as a mishmash of weird instead the amazing collection of things Ive done and gotten to experience.
I am an alcoholic that has fought fearlessly against my addiction and continue to win the battle,I won a bronze medal in gymnastics on vault 40 years ago and it comes out at every Olympics just for fun(mine was just a regional ........still it means a great deal to me).The same year I won grand prize in the school talent show (it was then I realized people who had nothing to do with me before were speaking to me...I was smart enough to not take it seriously.I taught gymnastics and stayed with favorite friends in Ann Arbor for short time(blast)
I was blessed with talent........I had to play music......and so I did......I was 22 when I was lucky enough to play a nice small lounge for the next 9 years.I did not have any other job...it was great(but it IS work keeping a room meant knowing at least 500 songs and constantly adding peoples favorites.)
I cooked for a meals on wheels program that was one of the most fun jobs I have ever had.And got to create a supper club like show where I cooked the meal for 80 then sang for them too..Fun!
My last job before entering the struggle of being poor was as a supervisor at a very large retirement community where we began a program called the Eden Alternative a wonderful thing that was very hard to instill in such a large complex.At any rate I was trained to teach,run learning circles etc,I was asked to speak at the annual symposium on my call to care for elders just before the creator Dr.William Thomas would take the stage.I thought it was going to be podium in a lecture room........It was actually 300 plus people in a gorgeous chandelier hung ballroom with stage and 2 screens about ten ft tall on either side of me(holy s--t!) So I went to the restroom and called on my grandma and my dad to come with me...both dead but always with me.
It went so well that it was overwhelming ,First I got a standing ovation which blew me away but then after and I am not embellishing I could not move 2 ft for the rest of the day without someone stopping me to say thankyou and how much the loved it.
I was speaking for like minded people and so it was an easier audience but I will never forget the day that I realized I could move people by being myself.....no playing,no singing.....just me...connecting.....the joy of it was not explainable.So moved was I ,that I wept folded over the table when I got home.
There are more personal moments with family and friends that are forever love spots on my heart.
So today lets see where weve been and focus on the amazing journey instead of whats next............to remember where weve been is to see where we are going.
I have been thinking alot about how we dont celebrate our lifes journeys in the sacred way they should be.I believe memories of pinnacle moments in our lives is a great tool to keep us going.
We tend to say "oh good for me !" and then promptly let them go as we search for the next boost.
You cant find them .....they find you to bolster you on your way to have the confidence to not fear whats next.
I realized the other day that I tend to think of my life as a mishmash of weird instead the amazing collection of things Ive done and gotten to experience.
I am an alcoholic that has fought fearlessly against my addiction and continue to win the battle,I won a bronze medal in gymnastics on vault 40 years ago and it comes out at every Olympics just for fun(mine was just a regional ........still it means a great deal to me).The same year I won grand prize in the school talent show (it was then I realized people who had nothing to do with me before were speaking to me...I was smart enough to not take it seriously.I taught gymnastics and stayed with favorite friends in Ann Arbor for short time(blast)
I was blessed with talent........I had to play music......and so I did......I was 22 when I was lucky enough to play a nice small lounge for the next 9 years.I did not have any other job...it was great(but it IS work keeping a room meant knowing at least 500 songs and constantly adding peoples favorites.)
I cooked for a meals on wheels program that was one of the most fun jobs I have ever had.And got to create a supper club like show where I cooked the meal for 80 then sang for them too..Fun!
My last job before entering the struggle of being poor was as a supervisor at a very large retirement community where we began a program called the Eden Alternative a wonderful thing that was very hard to instill in such a large complex.At any rate I was trained to teach,run learning circles etc,I was asked to speak at the annual symposium on my call to care for elders just before the creator Dr.William Thomas would take the stage.I thought it was going to be podium in a lecture room........It was actually 300 plus people in a gorgeous chandelier hung ballroom with stage and 2 screens about ten ft tall on either side of me(holy s--t!) So I went to the restroom and called on my grandma and my dad to come with me...both dead but always with me.
It went so well that it was overwhelming ,First I got a standing ovation which blew me away but then after and I am not embellishing I could not move 2 ft for the rest of the day without someone stopping me to say thankyou and how much the loved it.
I was speaking for like minded people and so it was an easier audience but I will never forget the day that I realized I could move people by being myself.....no playing,no singing.....just me...connecting.....the joy of it was not explainable.So moved was I ,that I wept folded over the table when I got home.
There are more personal moments with family and friends that are forever love spots on my heart.
So today lets see where weve been and focus on the amazing journey instead of whats next............to remember where weve been is to see where we are going.
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