Receiving

Many times I speak about giving in any way I can,to those who are suffering from all kinds of life issues.Sometimes its just talking.....sometimes a little cash.....food....whats needed.
As I  wrote before ,I left my job on Christmas Eve.I will be available for call ins but it became hugely physical for no money.
At any rate what I havent written about is receiving gifts and help.
I have to list what we received to get a handle on it.....its so much.
People gave me scratchoff tickets that totaled 255 dollars in winnings
I also got money from people at work,..lovely (saying goodbye is always hard some were real freinds)
We got cash gifts from family who are too generous
A microwave!!(from my sis)
From dear freinds a 50 inch flat screen (what??)and a futon and area rug!!
Cash gifts and ticket wins totalling over 600 dollars!(my word!!)
What does one do with all this love and generosity?
Its so wonderful.....and being a person who is always skeptical about his person it is an absolute honor to be treated this way.
Some may think it hard to accept all this. But long ago when I played piano for a living and would be astounded by tips I would make ,my mentor Mary Clancy(pianist extraordinare)said "Dont feel badly,..they dont know any other way ...."And from then on I started to realize people do what they do because they care for you and "dont"know any other way.
Over Christmas my fabulous friend Marty(who gave us the flat screen)said"Stop thinking its over the top,dont you know its just you and your" bride"(she always calls Wendi that)and how great you are to all ,I just HAVE to do these things.
I am going to begin to accept the fact that what goes around ,comes around and its okay for us to accept things given in great compassion and love.It will take practice .......but today I am accepting that people do love me and I must remember that.