The Stir

At times I realize that the words I use and the way I use them can cause a stir that sometimes people see as attack or maybe worse.
I know when I decided to do this that I wanted a place to put all of it out there and pick and poke at it till I am happy with what I have said.
So when a reader is particularly "stirred" or moved by something it is mostly a good feeling.
There are other times that I know I have just begun when I reread and I feel unfinished.I have to accept that most of what I put down is simply "what I think" and the experience here on earth described is just "my" reaction to things.
I have been an open book most of my life.I tell things about myself all the time.It has been a great experience for me.When I share whats happening, sometimes it clicks so well with people that they share and then you end up laughing at the thought that you were frightened to say the obvious.
Here in America people do an extraordinary amount of hiding feelings and whats happening to them because of how it might sound or worse be judged.We judge all the time........how often have I sat saying horrible things at the tv while I hear endless,stories of war and death and scary.And how many times have all of us said "you cant do that" or poked a hole in someones balloon that was just beginning to float in an upward direction?
Its human ,but it is something we can all work on.
Starting to know that what is right for you ,may not be for someone else and it doesnt matter if your two ideas dont  click........it just doesnt.When we judge others ideas arnt we really just seeing another side of ourselves we need to work on?I "think" so.
Of course this doesnt mean there wont be rage,anger.and complications,but ultimately the more I work on my insides and bring the rough out.....the more content I will be.I remember wonderful Ann Lamott saying what prayer was.....part of it being .."rage is prayer......its all prayer."       I love that.